suiciding?

There are rumors floating around that Panhellenic has decided to drop anyone who suicides. I have no idea if there is any truth to that rumor. However, like you said, even if you aren't dropped you have a 50/50 chance of also failing to get a bid if you suicide. I got my 2nd choice on bid day. I will admit I was disappointed and I was kind of jealous of girls who were screaming with joy running to their houses. I struggled for quite a while trying to fit in to a sorority I didn't feel like I fit in with and even considered dropping. I have stayed with it, but I do wonder what it would have been like to be with the sorority I felt the strongest connection to. It would be great if every girl could get their first choice, but I guess they have to even out the numbers so it doesn't always happen.

If you do not suicide and do rank both your houses (IF you do have two houses because you might only have one) then there is still a small chance you would get your 1st choice as a quota addition. For this to happen you would have to be ranked quite low by both houses; so low that each would fill quota before they got to you. As a quota addition, you would likely be placed with your first choice. If you suicide (SIP) and don't get that bid, your chance at getting a COB with the house you want is the lowest of the low odds, and an even worse chance of getting any house as a sophomore. Rank all your houses and take that bid where you are wanted. You have a 50-50 chance of loving that house after all.

The only advice I will give is don't suicide. You haven't even been through recruitment yet so you don't know how you will feel about any one sorority.